Life is a series of SWAGs

Back in April I uprooted my life again to move back to Oahu. Admittedly this timeline was sooner than planned, but a family member passed and the pandemic reinforced to me: 

1) The people I want to be around

2) The climate I want to live in

3) The impermanence of life

Thinking about how a sequence of nucleotides has managed to shutter the world for 2 years, causes a chill to run down my spine. It would be reductive to call COVID a reset, but for many people it was. Whether that be as micro as a change in job or relationship, or as macro as millions of people prematurely dying and currencies inflating 4x, this generation has a definitive life Before COVID-19 (BC-19) and life After COVID-19 (AC-19).

In a way Bend gave me the opportunity to define who I was without my existing social circles and obligations. I had a job with enough flexibility to sidehustle DJ, a home I could sculpt to my vision, and the space to explore new friendships that weren't based on years of knowing. Of course I didn't go into the move with any expectations, but I'm so grateful for the experience and the relationships I was able to foster from it.

Now that I'm back on the island I've lived on for over 25 years, my task is to mold it into the vision I want for the rest of my life. I couldn't bring Hawaii's climate to Bend or the people I cared about most, so my only real option was to come back and build what I want here. It's all easier said than done, and I have to set my vision board goals consciously knowing the impermanence of life and my personality type. Time to be vulnerable with an open heart. Time feel fear and do it anyway.